Sunday, May 11, 2008

This is my first Mother's Day...

...without my mom.

It's "funny" how all the firsts this year since my mom passed have hit me differently: the first birth of a child without calling my mom to announce the name and stats; my first birthday where my mom didn't call me; and now my first Mother's Day without my mom...I didn't buy a card or put together a Mother's Day present for her.

Since I've lived far away from her for more than 20 years, I don't miss her in the day-to-day things. More than anything, I miss not being able to ask her the questions that pop into my mind, "I'll just ask Mom."

And I miss not being able to celebrate the birth of our beautiful son. I miss not calling her on Mother's Day to thank her for being my mom. And I miss it that she's not reading this blog...this blog was mostly for her and for Tom's mom...it's the grandmas who most want to read about their grandchildren!

So, if you haven't called your mom today, please do! You know a lot better what you miss when you don't have it...and it's hard to imagine what it will be like until it actually happens.

Happy Mother's Day!

2 comments:

Heather said...

I'm sorry! That must be hard. Hope you had a happy mother's day yourself!

Blessings!
~Heather

Oh No Lofts said...

Thinking of you! Happy Mother's Day!

Chris and Jim